Ben is… digesting a burger and fries.
I only foray into this inane self revelatory practice
because it is relevant to the inception of this resolution blog and has larger
implications than the slight discomfort I am currently experiencing. In my inauguralpost I alluded to my 2011 resolution of abstinence from America’s favorite culinary
pastime – eating hamburgers and french-fries.
In that same post I expressed my desire to step up my game
with a resolution by addition rather than subtraction. My initial reason for my
desire to append rather than redact was rooted in a desire to make more use of
my time and to be productive. Yet today, 20 days farther into what was then
only a blurred future, the present that has developed has brought into focus my
motivation for addition rather than subtraction. I desire to live a life of moderation.
Moderation may seem like an underwhelming goal but I’m
coming to realize that it is one of the biggest challenges anyone can
face. Moderation is a land that hovers between
pleasure and pain, mania and melancholy, burgers and broccoli. Habits are easily formed and, given a little
time and will, easily broken, but to consistently indulge to a point of
satisfaction without stepping over the line seems nearly impossible.
I quickly began to see my lack of moderation in the time I
spent writing, and thinking about writing, in the first few weeks of this
blog. Loss of sleep, over shifting of
priorities, hyper exertion of time and energy, all resulted from an excessive
emphasis on the resolution.
Don’t get me wrong I have gained a lot from the discipline
of writing and rediscovered the joy it can produce in my life. I plan to continue writing daily and posting
to the blog but if that is going to happen I will have to continually seek
after a balance, a moderation, on this journey I have embarked on.
As for the burger? Tonight’s burger and fries broke a 13
month fast and mark the symbolic end of a tyrannical reign of excessive abstinence. Tonight’s burger reminded me that I can live
a revolutionary life, not of lofty ideals, extreme limitations or glut, but of consistent
and healthy variety across all areas of my life. And it was good too.
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